This is a total meltdown...

Ode for what was before

All of You

To the one who knows me not
To the one who never will
To the one who reads my thoughts
To the one to whom I kneel

To the one who looks so young
To the one who acts so old
To the one who cares for me
To the one who loves me not

To the one who is so strange
To the one I always changed
To the one I called at nights
To the one who were my skies

To the one that i first met
To the one I sometimes want
To the one I never changed
To the one who's always right

To the one I rarely see
To the one who'll never be
To the one who is so far
To the one that takes my heart

To the one who understood
To the one who calmed me down
To the one who said: "You should
Listen more" I say this now

To the one who's always there
To the one that knows me true
To the one who thinks I'm not
Know that I still care for you

To the one who were my first
Only, last and most loved girl
To the one who left me cold
To the one I talked of war

To the one who liyed so still
To the one who were so hot
To the one who let me hurt
Her without a single word

To the one who I kissed first
To the one who first kissed me
To the one who's life I changed
To the one that laughes at me

To the one that never knew
What she wants and wondered
Can she slowly break my heart
Leave me lonely, cold to die

To the one I never kissed
To the one I always touch
To the one that almost jumped
To the one I know the most

To the one that left for good
To the one that never writes
To the one that showed to me
Life is better than it sounds

To the victim of the rape
To the one with the red tape
To the one with half the name
To the one I'll never blame

To the one that I forget
To the one that i regret
To the one that always gets
What she wanted in the end

To the one who's everything
That a girl can ever be
To the one that I betrayed
To the one I sold for me

To the one I used to love
To the one I used to hug
To the one that was so black
Yet so soft and shiny bright

To the one that loved me once
To the one I threw aside
To the one I tried to fuck
To the one with who I cried

To the one who thinks he knows
To the one who tries to love
To the one who lives today
Never looking at the past

At the end of the day when the long talk's at hand
Spill my soul onto you let you stumble and fall

When the sun showes it's face, maybe then I'll go home
Leaving you with my thoughs seperate rights from wrong

How can we live like this.Why do we still go on?
How can you suffer me.I don't care, you don't know.

Take it.
Leave it.
Break it.
Spill it.

Fucking.
Walking.
Eating.
Talking.

Tic-Toc goes the clock.
Here-There do you care?
Laugh-cry don't ask why.
Love-hate I can't wait.

Ask me your questions before time runs out.
Give me the answers we lie and we're not.
Peeling the layers to see what's benieth.
Ask the right people let everyone drift.

And your facade is as cold as your soul
And you create your own world to move on
And you hear what I say about you
And I feel I just can't care for you.
(c)13.10/2002 Freemind
Unfinished

Knife

Ask your questions!
Ask them now!
Never though that you would be the one.

Hear the answers!
Will you, please?
Never knew that it will come to this.

Cold betrayal.
Who you trust?
I move on and throw away the past.

Is it so hard?
Is it right?
It was your choice. I will never fight.

Flames are burning.
In my soul.
I will choke the fire and walk the road alone.

I used to say: "A friends of mine"
And got stabbed in the back.
I used to say: "He brings me light"
But darkness came instead.

I saw it there but never thought
That it will be so cold
How people change.How fast, how strange
Whenever they're alone.

I know that this is your revenge
well, you can choke on it
In all the time your were my friend....
How did it come to this?
19.10/2002 (c)FreeMind
to Angel & Jesus