This is really funny...

Intro

Here's a collection of some stuff I wrote over the last few years.

As I was born in Ukrain, live in Israel and studied English for more than 6 years, I write in Russian, Hebrew & English.
Most of the stuff is in English, but my personally favourites are in Russian.

The stuff...

While in school our councelor sent me to a scocial worker.

During that time I came to realise some things, and had this little thingie written.

As all of us, I also had several phases in my life. And each phase was more or less reflected in the things I wrote.

The early songs is the point where I started to like (more or less. more less than less more) what I write.
The first 3 were written while participating the "IPCRI"(an organization that arranges meetings between Israely Jews, Arabs & Palestinians) project.
The other 2 were written after I expirienced my first (puppy :)love.

I had some things that I wrote before that, but you can't really call them anything but stupid.
I still included them here as I'm not in the habbit of destroying what was once written.
And besides, maybe someone may actually like them (dream on....).

As time passed by I was getting bored. So I started to write, and write, and write...
My most favourite time for writing was Literature and Bible class. Theese to subject really make you think about life.
The way I see it, those are the ones I started with. Everything I wrote before was just mumble...

Life got me twisted around and I ended up with someone 6 years older than me.
I learned quite a lot from her, made some conclusions, and, as a result, those little pearls emerged.

One day I was really tired. You know, the 2-days-no-sleep kind of tired.
And I sat down to write this, uhm, thingie. And after that I really wrote a lot of other thingies.
It's is really the strangest things I ever wrote.

I wrote a very few things in Russian, but I must say that some of them are my favourits.

Well...the time had come.While writing theese lines I already have two monhs of army service behind me.
During the basic training I started writing something, and I only managed to finish it not a while ago.
Also,there's a draft of something I did not a while ago.
Army is fun, if you know how to look at it...

A Passage

A question comes up in my mind: can you consciesly change yourself, or the will to change only comes after the sub-conscience had already sensed an undergoing change?

In the past couple of weeks I can see I'm not the same anymore. One of the most bright expressions of that was when I "fooled around" with a girl who already had a boyfriend. Usually, I would mind that there's someone else in her life and wouldn't even try to make physical contact of this level and intencity. But this time I just didn't cared. Non, whatsoever. All I cared about was my own feelings. And nothing else!!!

So did my notion of becoming more egoistic came becouse I felt that is what I needed at the time, or becouse I felt I'm already one?

And this girl. What can we have together? I think that, for the first time, I'm just "flowing". She's 4 years younger than me. I don't even love her. She's sweet, she can make me horny. I do like the loud, bitchy and wild child in her.

I like saying her things that bring her to the edge. And even more, I like to do some of them to her. I think it's a matter of control. And sometimes, I feel like I play with her.

She's so young and so easy to mold into something else. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe she only seems easy. But then again, I already had my sad expirience with 15 years old girls. Most of them are so complicated, they themselves don't know why they do and think the thinks they do and think.

To speak frankly, some of them don't even change untill they grow older. Much older. I have the doubtfull honour to know a girl that's undergoing theese changes right now. She's sweet and innoscent and only recently had trully stepped on the slippery path of love.

I've been told, by many poeple, that I tend to draticize. I am a book man, so I guess I got it from there, all this phatetism.

I think I already started working on that. Only time would tell. Time and my friends.

Not bored yet?

It seems that the time when you're being bored to tears in the classroom is the best time to write new things.
I hope they're worth anything....

I just read them all again. And I got to this conclusion: I can't write.
I need to be in a very self pittifull mood to like those things. Or to be extremely drunk!
Both are a bad option.But since I'm not going to publish them anyhow I might as well leave them here.
This way other people can read them and laugh at me.
Fun...

Something special this time

Got a new thingie going on.

A lot have happened.A lot had changed.And one night, after a long talk with The Warlock this thing was born.

It's about many people.And about no one in particular (though I know this is a lie).

And again, I think I should write here more.It seems that I have so much to put on this place for other, or no one to see.But I just don't have the time.

If some of you are bored enough to reed this on a regular basis, than I think I'll be updating the About section soon.

Than again, maybe not.

Enough babling.Just click.

Not mine.How sweet.

I just finished reading a book.A "what if" game with Alexander Dumas' infamous novel.
In this book, there's a poem.It was written a long time ago by a Spanish poet named Don Horhe Manrike.
This poem was quoted twice in the book.One time by a woman to her lover when she explained to him who and how they will kill.
And the second time it was quoted by a man who lost his love to another man who lost his love.
So here, I descided to make a page with my favorite poems.Most of them are in Russian...this is, after all, my mother language.

I hope you, whoever you are, will find something for yourself in them the way I did.
Enjoy.

I'll be updating this one whenever I'll have the strength to type in other stuff...