Life is a great thing. Especially if you know how to live it.
As someone once said: "I live not to eat, but eat to live".
This is how life should be, with meaning to them.
I look at my so called friends & classmates and I wonder about their soules, minds, toughts...
I wonder whether they actually have those things or are they just shells of organic matter who will live a life but will never be alive.
Do they wonder the same things about me? Do they even care what happens around them?
I've fallen in love.
I've fallen in love for the first time
And this time I know it's for real.
God knows, God knows I've fallen in love!
-Queen
Love.
Each day someone falls inlove, and each day someone's heart gets broken.
Circles.
Loops.
In the end, it always comes to this. To be together with someone, to share your thoughs, your mind, your body, your whole life. And to be loved. Isn't this what life is all about? Why is there a need to seek a meaning for life in vague places? Why does a man needs to write books, libraries full of words about a thing witch can be explained with one single movement of mind & matter? Two sounds. Two Parts. Two Peoples.
Love.
Hush, my baby. Baby, don't you cry.
Momma's gonna make all of your nightmares come true.
Momma's gonna put all of her fears into you.
Momma's gonna keep you right here under her wing.
She won't let you fly, but she might let you sing.
Momma's gonna keep Baby cozy and warm.
Oooo Babe.
Oooo Babe.
Ooo Babe, of course Momma's gonna help build a wall.
...
Hush, my baby. Baby, don't you cry.
Momma's gonna check out all your girlfriends for you.
Momma won't let anyone dirty get through.
Momma's gonna wait up until you get in.
Momma will always find out where you've been.
Momma's gonna keep Baby healthy and clean.
Oooo Babe.
Oooo Babe.
Ooo Babe, you'll always be Baby to me.
...
Mother, did it need to be so high?
-Pink Floyd
Mothers...
I can surely say those are the weirdest creatures to ever walk on the face of the planet.
It's so hard to mould into words what I want to say...
At the begining, they put everything into you. They give you birth, they feed you, they make sure you'll become what you are... In the begining...
The trouble starts when you grow. Then, just then, when you start to have a different look at the world, then, when what your mother thinks is good for you differs from what you think is good for you, just then you begin to realize. You understand you can't make a single move, you can't breathe, you can't sleep, anything, without being told what's the right way of doing those things.
When a convict is sentenced he knows he'll be free one day, but when you're being held prisiner by your own mother... You can't run, you can't hide... and in most cases, you also do not want to, becuase she's your mother. Because she raised you, gave you everything she had.
The good thing is if you realize this exactly at the same point of life when you leave your home and make another one. Not everyone's that lucky.
Imagine, that for a long period of time you and your mother have the most perfect relationsahip imaginable. You are like two friends. Life is pink, or at least, you see it that way. And then, one day you have a fight. You don't pay much attention to in, fights always happen, they happen "even in the best families". Then ther's another fight, and another... And a pattern emerges.
And what a miracle! You discover that what you think is not what she thinks. But that's not the worst part. What's much, much worst is that what she thinks you think is the absolute oposite of what you really think.
Confusing?
If you've been in this position, or in one now then you'll know what I mean.
And if you don't... then just wait... because they are everywhere.
Mothers...
You are my destiny
You are what you are to me
You are me hapyness
That's what you are
You are my sweet caress
You share my lonelyness
You are my dream come true
That's what you are
-Paul Anka
This is the story of me.
I met a girl. It was her birthday. We talked.
Ther's this very special feling you get after talking to someone. You have met only 10 hours ago and already feel you have known each other from childhood.
I almost never have feelings such as this. They are so hard to find. And when it lands on you, you, obviosly, feel strange.
If you had a normal life, your most strong intention would be in developing a relationship with the person. Here now, relationships are developed during a sertain period of time. During this period you get to know each other. Study the good and the bad sides. Learn to live with each other. Learn how to avoid the small conflicts that may arise if you're not aware to your friend's mind.
But if all of your life you lived in an enviroment witch with no strain could be called hostile, you, naturally, will try to grab what you can get. In this case, it would be someones heart and mind.
And so you go on, living in a shell of your past impresions.
Imagine you tell person you love him. You have no bad intentions, no ulterior motives, you just love that person. That's what you feel, that's what you know.
And imagine the other person sais he also loves you. How would that make you feel?
Isn't this the signal you did the right thing? Even though you rushed the later, even though you have not walked on the path.
And you feel in heaven.
If you want my body
And you think I'm sexy
Come on sugar let me know
If you really need me
Just reach out and touch me
Come on baby tell me so
You, sexy baby, you drive me crazy
-N-Trance
'What is a kiss?' one might ask.
'A kiss is a kiss is a kiss' could be the reply.
When you're kissed, what does that means?
When your faces come closer and closer and it takes forever to travel a distace the arm covers in seconds... You gently shift the hair out from her face and the lips attract you like ther's nothing else in the wholeworld. Maybe she's not that smart. Maybe she's not that pretty, maybe you could have done better. What does it matters, this is now, this is here. Only she is there and waiting. You hesitate for a second and she uses this tiny fraction to make the move you couldn't. You see something blaze at you and you loose orientation. In a few seconds you recover and find yourself in heaven.
So sweet is the taste!
Kiss someone else and it won't be the same, it'll be just a phisical act, nothing more. But kiss someone you love... and the world explodes with joy.
Ther's no time for us
Ther's no place for us
What is this things that builds our dreams, yet slips away from us
Who wants to live forever?
...
Who dares to love forever?
...and love must die
But touch my tears with your lips
Touch my world with your fingertips
And we can have forever!
And we can love forever!
Forever is our today
Who wants to live forever?
Forever is our today
Who waits forever anyway?
-Queen
Who?
Not me.
